The biggest regret in my life

Happened to hear this 2 songs recently and it brought me back to the past. I have to admit, my past really ain't that great. I hurt many people and if any of them happens to see this. I have to apologise for my behaviour in the past. I was a bastard. Due to what happened, I lost many friends including this one that was very dear to me. We went through thick and thin together and I viewed her as a role model and as my pillar of support. She was with me when I lost my ic the 2nd time, and literally panicked. Because of her, I actually had the chance to go through the whole process of a wedding and had the chance to play the piano at a wedding. Till now, I can still remember the day when I sat down on the piano bench, played one note then got so nervous that I nearly broke down. She was suppose to be somewhere else assisting in the wedding's final preparations but god knows why she suddenly just appeared beside me, sat down and told me to play for her. I lost this friend due to my childishness and my irresponsibility and that was the biggest regret in my life.

This song I heard in a radio recently on the cab to work. Looking out from the window. I thought of her.

我的天空为何挂满湿的泪
我的天空为何总灰的脸
飘流在世界的另一边
任寂寞侵犯一遍一遍
天空划着长长的思念

你的天空可有悬着想的云
你的天空可会有冷的月
放逐在世界的另一边
任寂寞占据一夜一夜
天空藏着深深的思念

我们天空何时才能成一片
我们天空何时能相连等待在世界的各一边任寂寞嬉笑一年一年天空叠着层层的思念但愿天空不再挂满湿的泪但愿天空不再涂上灰的脸

As for this song, I heard it recently while surfing youtube and when I heard it, it was like singing to me. Esp the last part 我多么想和你见一面 看看你最近改变 不再去说从前 只是寒暄 对你说一句 只是说一句 好久不见. My birthday is coming soon in 26 days and now I am very sure what my first wish will be.

我来到 你的城市
走过你来时的路
想象着 没我的日子
你是怎样的孤独
拿着你 给的照片
熟悉的那一条街
只是没了你的画面
我们回不到那天
你会不会忽然的出现
在街角的咖啡店
我会带着笑脸
回首寒暄
和你坐着聊聊天
我多么想和你见一面
看看你最近改变
不再去说从前
只是寒暄
对你说一句
只是说一句
好久不见